2 - Communicate

Wow, a busy day today! I am setting up for this new idea, my "project". The second thing, quite similar to the first one, really, I need to do is Communicate. Obviously to look for help you need to communicate you need. No push, no desperation, but I need to talk, chat, look, learn, I need a lot of things! And the best way to do it is probably to open to other people. Listen to them if they want to share something with me. There are many things I need to do, but let's move on following the lowest resistance path. There will be a need to lose weight, to get fitter, to stop smoking, but these are huge things that will take an awful lot of efforts, sacrifices, pains to be accomplished. Let's start with something simpler... So, gere I am blogging, trying to contact someone on facebook, linking it all together and hoping that at some point someone will come and help me.

I will start today forcing myself to have a bit of small talk with at least three people when I will go out. What could happen? I am usually quite close and shy, this has given me so much pain, I think it's a good start to open up a little more. In the end I am just setting myself for isolation and loneliness in this way... Let's try it up!

1 - Help!!!!

I am 38. Since a week or so. I live in Tallinn. I am Italian. I am single. I am too fat: 84 Kg. I am not good looking. I feel lonely. To put it clearly I am a mess. I need to improve, do something. First thing I thought of is ask for help. I know I can't make it alone. I need friends, support, advices, anything really. Tjis is another reason for me to open a blog, a new facebook account, where I can share my efforts, my ideas, with someone else. If nobody is going to read this, comment or help, it means I will have to do it myself. I hope not!

Welcome

Hello Everyone. Oh Well, it's just me at the moment but I think it's useful to clarify my intentions and give some background to myself in a first instance, and to whoever might read this.

Let's start with the reason why I opened this blog: improve myself and keep a log of everything, day to day. I call this "project" 100 things to do if you feel ugly, fat and lonely.

I know I am not the only one feeling like this so if I can make it to improve, other people might find this a useful guide to their own improvement project!